indulging in a sad mood tonight...

There are days, well usually nights, when I fall into a mood; it is a bad one. It is all consuming and, at times, frightening. And no one knows about it anymore. The person who guided me through these nights experienced much more intense moods than I and succumbed to death's seductive call earlier this month.

I wish I could have led him to safety as he did for me so many dark times. Not knowing him better is something I will actually admit to regretting in life. And I usually say I live with no regrets (which is a load of crap and we all know it!!!).

I miss you Sean; the world is far worse without you.