Ahhh!

I am such a bad friend right now:

I read, but I don't comment. I listen to messages, but I don't return calls. I laugh at texts, and then forget to reply.

Sorry world- it is end of semester stupidity.

I have an interview tomorrow- for a scholarship- a big one~ I am so scared.

That's all I got for now.

Ahhh!

Trying to study.

This Thanksgiving didn't thrill me; it felt hectic and lonely. My whole family wasn't close to together, I didn't see any of my friends and it got cold- I also didn't get to cook anything!
~ "Boo!!!" to all of the above.

The best part was that I did have one glorious evening where Chris and I stayed at a hotel in San Antonio. We checked in around six right when the cold front was blowing in, then we just watched Law and Order all night and relaxed- very nice. If I could have had a few more nights of that it would have been a lovely vacation! Next year, I must find a way to make this Thanksgiving commute of lunch in San Antonio and dinner in Austin more bearable.

I have two tests Monday, starting around 2 pm. I need to study like crazy, but I don't want to leave Del Rio, or more specifically Chris, yet. It's hard to study though, since I am not at home. I cannot wait for the next two weeks to pass and then school is over!!! I think there are like 16 days left- and then over 1 month of freedom!

Just gotta hang in there a little longer...

Love is...

-discovering you are watching the same Lifetime movie as your boyfriend after you had been talking during commercials for the last hour and a half.
;)

I love lazy, rainy weekends!

Of course, not all the time- but it is so satisfying to just relaaaaaaxxxx.... all day!

Fifty things about me.

This is for Tyly- a new project for everyone- fifty random facts about yourself. It is really hard!

1. I like to cook barefoot while listening to the blues.
2. I make an awesome lasagna- as does everyone in my family.
3. I love my comfy bed (thank you down comforter).
4. I love fantasy movies and historical romances.
5. I am afraid I may not like wine anymore- or maybe I only like expensive wine now.
6. I like to drink most of my favorite beers warmish.
7. I have hated Tom Cruise since Interview with a Vampire came out.
8. I can only watch one or two seasons of most shows before I quit caring (excluding S&TC and South Park).
9. I can't concentrate well enough to read every word in a book- so, I read by remembering quotable sections.
10. I have seen every episode of South Park and I love Chris even more because he has also.
11. I read a book when I was little, which said to learn to flirt a girl should observe Scarlett O'Hara in Gone with the Wind; now when I see that movie I think, so that's what happened to me!
12. I love, love, love Gone with the Wind and I cry every time Atlanta burns and every time that Rhett leaves for London.
13. Children of the Corn was the first scary movie I ever saw- and I still don't like corn fields and will never watch it again. Evil children are just so wrong!
14. Good lord, do I love enchiladas, nachos, tacos and a good margarita!
15. I don't exercise enough- I like to, but I just never get around to it.
16. I am way into Jimmy Buffett- it makes me so sad that Chris isn't.
17. I mimic people's accents when I speak to them; not on purpose, I just do.
18. I am the worst channel changer in the world.
19. I love Jennifer Garner- she gives me warm fuzzies. (13 Going on 30 rocks!)
20. I hate televised sporting events. I think they are loud and boring. I trace this hatred back to my dad turning off Nickelodeon for football.
21. I have a crazy love for bamboo and dolphins.
22. I can't throw out blue glass- it is just too beautiful.
23. I take a crazy amount of pictures. I can't stop myself. It gets annoying. Sorry.
24. I hated the food in Spain.
25. I order steak rare or medium rare; if there is no blood, it's not for me.
26. I don't remember the last time I had a good steak; it has been a while.
27. I like to cook for people; it is a way I show love.
28. I don't want to bear children, ever since I was little it has terrified me.
29. I want to go on vacation with Chris because I love to experience new things with him -hint hint ; )
30. I imagine myself becoming an amazing blues guitarist someday, but I don't have the will power to practice everyday.
31. I want to learn to fly a plane, jump out of a plane, type without looking, waltz like Cinderella and kick some serious ass.
32. I hate wearing jewelry; I feeel like it is really uncomfortable. I guess, it is just not my style.
33 is my favorite number. It was my older sister's favorite number, but I really love it also.
34. I can recite the Walrus and the Carpenter, the Lorax, the Jabberwocky and a few random Shakespeare scenes.
35. I love Geography and maps. I am a nerd.
36. I think my sister's wedding was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen.
37. I can almost kill a roach in my apartment without making a ridiculous and dramatic scene.
38. Whiskey makes me mean or feisty or something in between (watch out on St. Patrick's Day!).
39. I don't like wearing makeup or heels- they make me uncomfortable.
40. My hair is turning grey and I can't wait! I am also getting wrinkles. I can't believe I am so old!
41. I don't really like to drive- except on road trips.
42. I love potato soup!
43. I get really hungover if I have more than 3 drinks.
44. If you are snoring, I will push you or poke you, I have no mercy.
45. I can't stop cutting my own hair. I don't trust anyone else to do it; even though they do it better, usually.
46. I am obsessed with semi-colons; I use them indiscriminately.
47. I am completely scared of being a failure, but also of succeeding.
48. I currently have a hole in my tooth- where a filling fell out.
49. I am a teeth person- that's what I check out first in guys or people. Love me some purty teef.
50. I think life is about savoring things as much as you can.

I saw a website where they listed 100 things- does anyone even read after 15? (See # 9 again).

He came!

It seemed like it had been forever- and he was three days late because he had been working so hard, but he came to visit! I was so happy!!!!
:)

And then he had to leave again.
:(

Now, only a week until we meet again for Thanksgiving. I am driving to Del Rio next Tuesday night. Then, on Thursday we go to San Antonio to have brunch with Chris' family and then to Austin for an early dinner with my family. After that we have the weekend to spend together and I don't know what our plans are- I was thinking maybe we could go camping if he has time to take off work. I dunno- I love camping in the fall.

My sister is going to the Renaissance Fest near Houston the day after Thanksgiving and she wants us to come. She has a great group of friends who are basically an extension of our family these days that have been going to this thing every Fall for like six - seven years now? I went once, but I didn't camp with them, which they say is the best part, so I guess I missed out. I would love to go camp with them at Ren Fest- but Chris will not yield to my requests- maybe next year?

I am really excited about New Years because we don't have plans yet- any ideas?

What a ride!!!

This quote was on an email I received from a list serve for science majors here at TAMUCC:

"Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways - Chardonnay in one hand - chocolate in the other - body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming "WOO HOO, What a Ride!!"

Simply, exchange the Chardonnay for any interesting red wine and you have a part of my life's philosophy.

I have often said that a life without wine and chocolate isn't worth all the trouble. On that note, I think it is time for Rocky Road ice cream and a glass of Pinot Noir. Don't panic- I haven't lost my mind- the ice cream is light...

Side note: "Don't panic"- another integral part of the philosophy (thanks to Douglass Adams).

Which makes me think to mention, on Thursday I am volunteering for the first time at the Texas Marine Mammal Stranding Network and babysitting a dolphin named Alice. Very exciting!!

'I can't explain myself, I'm afraid, sir,' said Alice, 'Because I'm not myself you see.'

So long and thanks for all the fish!

Google-able.

People often tease me because my solution to anything I am unsure of is, "Google it!". I love google. There is an answer to every question. A solution to every riddle. Nothing is unexplainable or impossible.

I have googled myself a few times. When I was 19, there was nothing about me on the world wide web. At 22, there was only the website for a no-budget movie I had a small role in. Now at 25, there is my blog, a few articles I have written for www.corpusbeat.com, and the movie is still there.

Moving up in the world.

There is also some lady who lives near Austin with my name who works for the community college, which adds confusion, but keeps things interesting.

Now if you google Mrs. Cassandra Webb, you discover she is blind, has telepathic powers and is a mutant. The things your friends neglect to tell you about themselves!
;)

What I've Come to Realize:

Tagged by Tyly- but this may end with me because I don't know who else to tag! Maybe I can start a new one and send it around...?

1. I've come to realize that my butt:
is inversely proportional to how much time I spend working out.

2. I've come to realize that I talk :
more when I am happy!

3. I've come to realize that I love:
days when I can be happy just to be~ and the sun ~ and my doggies ~ and the beach ~ family ~ margaritas ~ wine ~ flying!!! ~ travel ~ foooooood~ waltzing!!!!

4. I've come to realize that I have:
no idea how to follow a plan without taking detours.

5. I've come to realize that I lost:
my self consciousness.

6. I've come to realize that I hate it when:
I disappoint people I love.

8. I've come to realize that marriage:
won't necessarily kill a person, but it might.
;)

9. I've come to realize that:
there is no point in a pitcher of margaritas without a cohort, usually.

10. I've come to realize that I'll always be:
irrational when I am hungry.

11. I've come to realize that I have a crush on:
a real man.

12. I've come to realize that the last time I cried was:
when I remembered how lucky I was to be alive.

13. I've come to realize that my cell phone is:
always set on vibrate (I hate ringtones!).

14. I've come to realize that when I wake up in the morning:
it's time to take the girls, and my lazy butt, for a run.

15. I've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night I:
should spend some time stretching, reading and writing.

16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about:
what a great day I had and how much fun tomorrow will be!

17. I've come to realize that babies are:
best when you can hand them back to the owner.
;)

18. I've come to realize that when I get on MySpace:
I don't really expect to see anything too exciting anymore.

19. I've come to realize that today I will:
really enjoy being on the planet.

20. I've come to realize that tonight I will:
drink some pinot noir out of a box~ do pilates ~ and make dog food.

21. I've come to realize that tomorrow I will:
have to be at school at seven AM because I am going to play science teacher at a elementary school for the day.

22. I've come to realize that I really want to:
contribute as much as I can to the health of our world~ but where to start???

23. I've come to realize that the person who is most likely to repost this:
I dunno- I think I am out of people!!! I don't think Rachel Rinehart will do it?

Yoda from Chris.

I am not that into Star Wars, contrary to what some of my blogs may suggest. I haven't seen the new ones more than once. I do love me some Yoda though. Chris posted this on my blog,

“Named must your fear be before banish it you can.”

I honestly don't know if this is all Chris or actual words of Yoda because... well, I am not that into Star Wars.

My fear in life is not being able to be happy. I fear making the wrong choices and that is why I change my mind so often.

How does a person know what is the right path to walk down? Some may look more appealing, but end up a place you think you don't want to go. Some paths are harder to walk, but have moments of beauty and end up exactly where you want to be. Why can't the paths merge? That would simplify everything, wouldn't it.

I guess in the end, we are the choices we make.

Weird love. Looks like baby poo- tastes like heaven.

Split pea soup. I love this stuff! It is delicious and healthy. It has the creamy, sinful texture of potato soup- but it is all good for you.

I made the most amazing batch yesterday and am eating it for basically every meal.

But, why does it have to look, as Chris put it, like baby poop?

Stupid Genetic Makeup!

I am bored.

I am broke and have taken money from my parents, so I feel guilty spending any on recreation. This rules out the beach most days because of gas costs. This rules out bars and dinners out.

So, I was reflecting on how nice it was living with the blond Rachel. You know, having someone around to chitchat with. Someone to say, "Hell yes, I wanna go to HEB with you!" or, "Margaritas at noon would be perfectly reasonable- after all, it is Tuesday!" or "Yeah ok, I guess we can start our new fitness quest tonight, at eleven pm, after four pitchers of margaritas; let's go play basketball- that is perfectly reasonable!" Mostly, I could use a person to say- "Ok, that's it girlie, lose the sweats, add lip gloss and deodorant- we are going out!"

I feel like I am becoming a hermit.

But, we won't get into that because that is neither here nor there-

The point is I was bored- so, I made a cocktail. Nothing crazy, just a cocktail... then I watched five hours of My Name is Earl that I downloaded.

Then, I started cleaning... for entertainment. I cleaned my whole apartment. I did the dishes, some laundry, tidied up the living room, wiped counters down with antibacterial spray and was cleaning my mirror in the bathroom when my reflection caught my eye- what was I doing? I feel I am a fairly interesting person and I know I am a good friend. I can safely say that people usually have fun around me. Yet, I am cleaning my apartment, which was not terribly dirty, for fun- in my spare time.

It occurred to me that a man would have done something entertaining or fulfilling- maybe gone fishing, or as Rachel imagined, they would have at the very least, conducted light saber practice with Captain Solo; and yet I as a woman, felt compelled to clean. What is wrong with me? I texted Rachel about this epiphany and she texted back, "LOL", her standard response to most things (she is a giggly one); but then she added, "I was about to start cleaning!"

Well I say, no more! I will no longer clean while men fish, play disc golf, shot gun beers and goose the gherkin; I will do these things and more! Well those that are physically possible, and I will start now, right now. The dogs and I are going fishing. Well, not really because I do not have bait, but we will walk down to the pier... or something. Well, we will go outside, at least, and that is a start.

One more euphemism just for fun-

pound the flounder...

and goodnight.

HAHAHAHA.....

ok one more, grooming the wookie...
no, performing the Jedi hand trick.
No, test firing the Death Star....
Yep, that's the one.
;)

Oh, and those Raisenettes, all gone.